Thursday, September 17, 2009

In the face of change

I slept most of today, something I seldom do. Since starting this weight-lose journey, I have not allowed myself to return to bed after I start my morning. That is quite a discipline, since my husband works nights and is always in bed during the day. Although I'd slept all night, I was mentally and emotionally exhausted from life. Just on overload!
It was nice to just escape the non-stop thoughts and second guessing all day. You know how you have a fight and you think of all the things you'd wished you'd done or said. Hindsight is 20/20...but a person could certainly send themselves to a the funny farm dwelling on "what could have been". I try not to hash and rehash life. What is done is the past and all we can change is the future.

I did enjoy looking into the past a bit today. To not beat myself up but bask in the pleasure of some success. Losing 54lb certainly changes a persons look. I'm not done. I'm only just beginning this journey...but for a moment it was nice to reward myself in looking back from where I came. I am amazed how my face has changed over 4 months and I look forward to what is ahead.


1 comment:

  1. Yaaay for not beating yourself up. You look so glowy and happy in the last pic, although there's always a beautiful verve in your face that is very pleasing and attractive.

    I found living in the present a thing of beauty. Something I just recently learned to do, maybe as recently as a year ago.

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